Loving What You Despise
About the book
I always wanted him. That’s the most pathetic part of all. I wanted him when I was nothing more than the little sister of his best executioner, when he didn’t even know my name. I loved him in silence, with that foolish tenderness only naive girls are capable of. And I made the mistake of telling him. I handed him my heart, expecting… I don’t know what. Mockery? That would have been mercy. Instead, I listened to every poisonous word as he explained to Zamira, right in front of me, why someone like me—weak, sentimental, insignificant, and plain—would never, under any circumstance, be to his liking. I wanted to hate him. But my heart turned traitor, refusing to forget him. So I did the only thing someone who doesn’t know how to be cruel can do: I walked away.
Abstract of the book "Loving What You Despise"
I always wanted him. That’s the most pathetic part of all. I wanted him when I was nothing more than the little sister of his best executioner, when he didn’t even know my name. I loved him in silence, with that foolish tenderness only naive girls are capable of. And I made the mistake of telling him. I handed him my heart, expecting… I don’t know what. Mockery? That would have been mercy. Instead, I listened to every poisonous word as he explained to Zamira, right in front of me, why someone like me—weak, sentimental, insignificant, and plain—would never, under any circumstance, be to his liking. I wanted to hate him. But my heart turned traitor, refusing to forget him. So I did the only thing someone who doesn’t know how to be cruel can do: I walked away.
284 comments
lolita05.05.2026, 00:59hahaha they ratted him out
- lolita05.05.2026, 00:48
Nooo, Asen is not to blame for his outbursts.
- lolita05.05.2026, 00:22
With all due respect to the book and the Author, but my goodness, this protagonist is very frustrating. I don't think she will change, but there's still more to come, and we'll see.
- lolita04.05.2026, 16:40
By God, I hope that later on this protagonist evolves because she is being so crumbly.
kla-kr29.04.2026, 22:10I loved it ❤️ I had some doubts about certain characters, but without a doubt, the protagonists had a beautiful ending. I liked his redemption and that her love (intense and crumbly, but authentic) was able to pull him out of his trauma. Lovely story!
gabss22.04.2026, 04:49I love the story, I would like to know if there will be a discount.
yoenis-barrios20.04.2026, 15:10Hello, good morning. I just bought the book and I don't have access to the chapters.
mayaflor20.04.2026, 15:44Yoenis Barrios, Hi. Sometimes the platform takes a few minutes to enable the chapters. Try closing and reopening.
anama-anama16.04.2026, 02:30Chapter 31 and Elina DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!! What a loudmouth woman!!!!!! She ruined everything by not shutting her mouth!!! How old is she, 10?!!! Seriously, she’s too much.
carolina-guguz17.04.2026, 19:04Anama Anama, To mess with her
- anama-anama16.04.2026, 15:21
Hummm, I think some things were left unresolved. What happened with Asen and Dara?!!! The other sister and Gavril's enemy?!!!!! It feels like it was left in limbo.
mayaflor17.04.2026, 15:15Anama Anama, Hello lovely, Zamira has her own story that I will release later, and it involves Asen in a certain way.
- eloisa-martinez06.04.2026, 00:46
Very good story, but Elina really frustrated me, I wanted to know why Nicolay acted that way, and Elina's brothers didn't say anything.
anama-anama17.04.2026, 14:04Eloísa Martínez, And the saddest thing is that we are left without knowing, since unfortunately the author does not respond :(
ruth15.04.2026, 16:31I expected more from the ending
mia-herrera15.04.2026, 08:05Hello author, could I ask what happened to the book that was still being published where the protagonist was a girl living in a rural area and the main character was a mafioso?
- anama-anama13.04.2026, 22:49
Ready!!!!! IT'S MINE NOW!!!!!!! I’ve been wanting this book.
- anama-anama12.04.2026, 21:08
I’m asking again and hoping the author doesn’t ignore me this time, when will there be a discount?!!!
anama-anama12.04.2026, 22:08Mayaflor, Thank you very much, I will be on the lookout to purchase it.
- gaby-aguilar10.04.2026, 10:26
They are pressuring Nickolay with his mom to keep her away from Gravril.